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Wake Up Call: Haiti | Toledo Missions Photographer

Well.. there He goes again.  God.  Smacking me upside the head.  Apparently I need it.  God is funny and He has quite the sense of humor.  There’s a saying that goes something like this…

“If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans.”

Last March, I went on a whirlwind missions trip with my church to Haiti.  That trip changed my life and changed my outlook on so many different things.  I came back heartbroken and healed, all at once.  I yearned to go back and try to make more of a difference.  Well, as we all know… Life gets in the way.  It just does.  Things happen, things change, and life goes on.

When I returned from a week in Haiti I was overflowing.  With love..for the human race and for myself.  That is the first time I experienced love for myself..ever.  Strange, huh?  I see a counselor from time to time who owns a missions organization in Haiti (ironic) and she told me once:  ”You were exactly who God meant you to be, while you were in Haiti.  You were stripped of all of your daily responsibilities and all of the “junk” that you deal with (that we all deal with) on a day to day basis.  You had the chance to just be YOU.”  She was exactly right.  I was just me.  I wasn’t Mom, Wife, Sister, Daughter, Cook, Chauffer, Maid, Friend…I was just Tara.  It was so exhilarating and freeing to see who I am and who I am meant to be.  For the first time ever, I loved myself.  Being me…was enough.  I know that some will understand that, and some won’t, and that’s ok.  I’ve battled pretty extreme self esteem issues all of my life so this was pretty monumental for me.

The night before I came home I was on the phone with my husband Justin, trying to convey to him the overflow that I was feeling in my heart.  I didn’t feel much interest from him, and he told me in no uncertain terms, that he had no interest in ever going to Haiti.  It crushed me, as I so wanted to share this with him.  I felt that it would strengthen us as a unit and give him a different outlook on some things as well.  I felt some struggles when I returned home and immersed myself back into our daily lives, as I didn’t know how to share with him how I was feeling inside…especially since I felt like he was so disinterested.

Life eventually returned back to “normal”.

Fast forward to a week ago.

Without delving into too much, I was talking to a pastor at church about my Haiti experience and how I feel like I *need* that again.  He said to me “You and Justin are going on the next Haiti trip, you don’t have a choice.”  Wait…both of us?  Really?  When?  Oh..in MARCH?  Like…5 weeks away, March?  Yes.  There just happened to be enough space for the two of us to go, with the same leader who took me last year.

Justin readily agreed.  Isn’t it ironic how things can change?  God sure does have a sense of humor!

So now we are in the process of quickly getting a passport for Justin, along with immunizations, which cost a considerable amount of  money.  We do have half of the trip covered, but right now we are praying that we can somehow scrape up the remaining half, about $1500.  This trip really isn’t an option for us, it’s a necessity, for so many reasons.  I am excited and anxious and a little apprehensive.

Now I’m going to ask you, my readers and my friends, for your help.  If you can find it in your heart to contribute to our trip, we would be eternally grateful.  If you can’t contribute monetarily, I ask for your prayers.

I encourage you to go through my blogging about my last trip in March, you can start here and follow the links to the days after:

http://chixieandhoney.com/blog/?p=800

If you would like to contribute towards our trip, please click the Donate button below. Thank you so much <3





 

 

 

 

 

2K Fan Giveaway! | Toledo Professional Photographer

We have recently hit 2,000 fans on facebook and wanted to celebrate by hosting an awesome giveaway with some fabulous vendors.  There are a total of 13 prizes, and each one will be awarded individually!

How cool is that?  So…you have 13 chances to WIN!

Are you ready to see what the prizes are?

All of the photos pictured are copyrighted, please do not copy, print or distribute.  Many thanks to all of the vendors for contributing their gorgeous products…I’m so jealous ‘cuz I for sure want them too!

 

The Whimsy Collection Lightroom Presets….a collection of 20 gorgeous Lightroom presets from Chixie and Honey..

A couple examples…


 

Scalloped Bonnet hat from Birdy Bird Boutique

 

A $100 GC to On The Spot Studio (store)!

 

Children’s Custom Fork and Spoon set from Oh Zilly Me!

 

Boy’s newborn tie from JenC Designs

 

Headband of choice from Ginger Locks

Canvatote from Holding Art

Chevron Blog Template from Night Owl Custom Designs

Knot Top beanie  from Sweet and Simple Knits


Stocking hat in color of your choice from Zellashop

“Once Upon a Pastime” newborn wrap headband from Blessedmama Designs

Cloche Beanie Hat from Prop Me Up Prop Shop

 

HOW TO ENTER:

You MUST “like” each vendors page on Facebook (sign up if you don’t have an account….it’s easy AND fun :) …you are missing out on news, specials and product features!

Then you must post a comment ON THIS BLOG POST saying that you liked all 12 vendors (and for fun…tell us which product you’d most want to win!)

Once you do those steps, you’ll be entered!  Only one entry per person. :)  Giveaway will go on for 7 days, then we will do a drawing of 13 names for 13 prizes!  Sound like fun?

Have at it and enjoy!

CLICK THIS LINK and follow the directions!
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Do you “like” us? | Toledo Newborn Photographer

It’s been quiet over here on the blog. I know, I’m so bad. Life just gets crazy and the blog always gets put on the back burner. BUT! I’m always updating over on the Chixie and Honey FACEBOOK PAGE!

Head on over and “like” us and take a look around!

 

For example you can see photos like all of this… :)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

See you over there!

2013 Senior Spokesmodel Search | Toledo Senior Photographer

Calling all supermodels :)

Chixie and Honey is looking for 2013 senior spokesmodels.  This will mean FREE stuff for you if you are chosen!

Do you have an active social life?  Involved in a lot of activities? You might be who we’re looking for!

Please contact Tara @ Chixie and Honey

chixieandhoney@hotmail.com

419 309 2346

 

Haiti: Day Two | Toledo Missions Photographer

I’ve had so many people email me, message me, and call me to let me know how much they are enjoying my Haiti stories and photos.  That means so much to me.  I hope to reach a whole boatload of people through my blog and stories…to bring an awareness of the Haitian culture and it’s people…especially the children.

I’m back into the daily grind here at home and finding it difficult.  Don’t get me wrong…I missed my family terribly and came home with a whole new appreciation of my husband and my kids.  I think sometimes we all take each other for granted in life, and sometimes it takes something life changing to realize that we shouldn’t.

Hold your love ones close.  Tell them how much you love them.  Show them how much you love them.  Let the little things go, because it’s not important.

I came back to the States with my eyes wide open.  The excess of STUFF that we all have…and NEED, or think we need, more.  I was hanging up some clothes in my son’s closet yesterday and I thought to myself how a typical Haitian would fall over at the amount of clothes hanging in this closet.  And there wasn’t that much, a few shirts, pants and a couple jackets.  I came home feeling overwhelmed at all of the crap we have, and the realization that truly we are all so entitled. It’s all part of our culture.  I actually really envy a lot of the Haitian culture.  There is a complete sense of community and simplistic nature… if only by necessity.  Everyone helps each other, because if they didn’t, they wouldn’t survive.

On to Day 2.

We were up early, in Xaragua, anxious to get to Dessalines where we would spend our week.  We packed the truck back up and headed out.  Our first stop was “The Beachhouse”…as it’s been named.  This house on the beach is owned by part of the association that our church and the missions that we run are a part of (a large organization) and is empty.  There is talk of getting it back up and running and then we wouldn’t have to stay at Xaragua when teams come in, we could stay instead at the Beachhouse as a halfway point.  It is empty and we could see squatters in there hiding.  We did not go inside.  There is a wall surrounding the place and if it were to be restored there would have to be armed guards stationed there at all times to keep squatters and vandals (stealing) out.

The view right out back:

The view from that pier:

 

And our first group photo (sorry Jamie, it’s the only one I had! :)  )

 

Then we got back on the road for another 2 hour drive or so.  It was Wednesday, which is a very big Market day in all parts of Haiti.  A passing shot:

I mentioned “TapTaps” in my previous post.  This is a Haitian taxi.  It could be a motorcycle, a truck, a bus…anything that moves. They pile as many people as possible on them.  Here was an interesting way to ride… see the boy behind the ladder?

We stopped in Saint Marc to go to the grocery store.  A very small grocery store but they had the coffee we wanted to take back to the States and they accepted American money.  I think we cleaned them out of their stock of good coffee! :)

We arrived in Dessalines and was just pulling up the two track up to the compound and Tim jumped out of the back of the truck and threw up.  We assumed he was car sick since he rode in the bed of the truck facing backwards.  Turns out, we are pretty sure he had food poisoning.  He was sick for 2 days.  Word to the wise…don’t eat salad in Haiti when you don’t know for sure that it’s been prepared properly.  He was the only one that ate some lettuce/salad in Xaragua so we are thinking that was the problem.  We all felt so bad for him.

We arrived at the compound and were assigned our rooms.  We met the cook, Chaupette who is a beautiful and tiny little Haitian woman with so much love in her eyes and heart.  She cooked an awesome Haitian meal for lunch (and every day after while we were there).  Beans and rice are a Haitian staple, and lots of seasonings and spices.  I was eating something that I thought was beef but it turned out to be goat.  I’m the type of person that will eat most anything if I don’t know what it is.  I had a hard time eating it after that.  So I just said…”Don’t tell me what I’m eating”. :)

Jacquelin then took us to Market down in Dessalines.  We walked there in a little group.  I wanted to take as many photos as possible but so many people do not want their photos taken, so I had to be careful of what I was pointing my camera at.  The sights, sounds and smells were so overwhelming.  People are stacked on top of each other, so much yelling, the sun was blazing hot and the smell of garbage, rotting food, unwashed bodies were all encompasing.  I’m so glad that I got to see it but I didn’t have any desire to go through again. ;)  Here are some photos of Market day:

This beautiful woman gave her permission to have her photo taken…and Rob gave her a coin in thanks.

Goats waiting to be bought and slaugtered:

This was part of the meat market.  Let me just say that I would not be sad if I never got to see another Haitian meat market.  I didn’t photograph the gory stuff, only this.  There were flies everywhere and I breathed through my mouth as we quickly went through this room.

The smell of fresh bread was very welcome when we walked out of the room above:

Another beautiful woman willing to pose for me.  She was selling rice and beans.  It is not common to see an older Haitian, since the life expectancy averages right around 50 years of age.

We saw a lot of charcoal and piles of wood (sticks) for sale since it is still “chilly” in the mountains at night.  I wanted to photograph the women who were selling the charcoal as they were pitch black from the dust but I didn’t get a good vibe so I didn’t ask.

 

After visiting the market we drove around Dessalines, visiting the Hospital, picking up some Soda and ice and Rob showing us where some things were.  We then took a drive over to where some Dr’s quarters were being built in the town.  A Canadian missionary, named Ian, who is 76 years old, spends a huge amount of time in Dessalines helping in so many ways.  He was overseeing the building of these quarters for some Haitian drs to live in with their families.  He is a tall and kind and gentle man with a true love for the Haitian people.  He told us of Rosanna, a women who was begging him for help.  Her home was falling down around her and the 15 people (including a sister and mother, and a gaggle of kids) who lived with her.  Ian decided to build her a new house, 3 rooms.  Ian said the house was torn down by removing 4 nails and just simply pushing it over.  We walked through her tiny little new cement home, with her beaming from ear to ear.  She was so proud of her new home.  They had no beds, and the children no clothes.  A daughter of hers, maybe around 9, came walking in the door dragging one side of her body since she is paralyzed on one side.  Another little girl there had orange hair, which means that she is slowly dying from malnutrition. We walked outside while Ian spoke with the family and a tin bowl blew over from the makeshift table in their “kitchen” (meaning…a few rocks to prop up a large pot to cook whatever she can come up with, and sometimes cooking nothing).  The bowl had some rice in it and some of it got on Jamie’s feet.  We were filthy from riding and walking all day.  Rosanna bent down and cleaned off Jamie’s leg, she was so concerned that he had something on him.  I turned my head with tears in my eyes.  I did not want them to see me cry.  They were so proud of a situation that I saw as horrible.  It was so incredibly humbling.

We visited the orphanage where we each had 5 kids crawling on us and touching us.  It was a sweet end to a long day.

That evening I was in the compound discussing the day with my teammates.  I asked “How can anyone ever make a difference?  Where do you even start?”  I was feeling so defeated and sad over what I had seen that day.  I was so overwhelmed.

A man that was also staying there said to me “Have you ever heard the starfish story?”  I said that I hadn’t.  He told me this story:

One day a man was walking along the beach when he noticed
a boy picking something up and gently throwing it into the ocean.

Approaching the boy, he asked, What are you doing?

The youth replied, Throwing starfish back into the ocean.
The surf is up and the tide is going out.  If I don’t throw them back, they’ll die.

Son, the man said, don’t you realize there are miles and miles of beach and hundreds of starfish?
You can’t make a difference!

After listening politely, the boy bent down, picked up another starfish,
and threw it back into the surf.  Then, smiling at the man, he said
I made a difference for that one.

That story moved me to tears.  I kept it in mind and retold it several times.  A photographer friend told it to me again after I got back home and was voicing some of my frustrations over feeling like there’s so much need….and I’m only one person.  I was again feeling defeated and frustrated because my heart ached to go back and “do” more.  The story is an inspiration and I keep reminding myself of it.

Here’s a quick iPad snap of Rob playing soccer with the townkids outside the compound.  That is Rob’s passion…playing soccer with the boys.  Everytime he goes, he brings several soccer balls.  They all know him by name and want their own ball. :)

I hope you are enjoying my journal of Haiti.  Please leave a comment to let me know you are visiting and reading, I would love to hear from you!

Toledo Photographer | a little piece of Me

Those of you that know me… know that I am a complete open book.  Very honest.  Too honest, sometimes.  Not hurtful honest, just very honest about *me* and about who *I* am, and once was, as a person.

 

The only really big thing that I am closed off and private about is about my faith.  More specifically, my faith in God.  I know, many of you are thinking that faith is the ONE thing that you should shout out about from the rooftops.  Well, there is a bit of history there, as I’m sure so many people can relate.  (Isn’t there a bit of history pertaining to, well, everything?)  One of the reason’s I am private about my faith, probably the biggest reason, is that I was raised Catholic.  In my little tiny Catholic church, with an ancient priest, with everyone sitting and staring with glassy eyes during mass, well, it just didn’t mean anything, ya know?  It was just a thing we did on Saturdays, Sundays and holidays.  When I got older, I only went on holidays.  Oh yes, weddings too. ;)

 

I wasn’t taught to pray every day (except of course, before supper), wasn’t taught that God might actually listen, that He might answer my prayers, that it was okay to just talk to God about anything and everything.  I’ve only learned this since I’ve been married.  I am now a pretty regular attendee of church (a church that my husband and his family have attended for some years). I am involved in small life groups, and have even attended some bible study groups.  I am still very guarded though.  I don’t know why it is.  It’s almost like there is a piece of me that is afraid.
For over three years now, I have felt this pull, this calling inside of me, to do something.  I didn’t know what.  Or how.  I just knew it was there.  Then I found out about our church’s mission teams.  Our church has teams that go to Haiti several times a year to do so many things.

 

I was immediately mesmerized and felt that this was the answer to my calling.  I have a gift that God has given me and I can use it.  I can photograph the people of Haiti and tell their stories.  We all know and appreciate that a photograph is a moment in time, captured forever.  Photographs also tell a story.  I feel that I need to use my God given gift to tell the story of everyone that I encounter in Haiti. Their stories are right there on their faces, in their eyes, smiles and tears.

 

I especially want to tell the story of the children.

I have tried for almost three years to get there.  Three years. For one reason or another, it hasn’t happened.  Last March I was scheduled to go, but my doctor advised against it because I was so sick.  I had the plane tickets ordered in my name for this past November’s trip and I had to pull out at last minute due to some personal reasons I was dealing with here at home.

Now, guess what?  It’s happening.  I’m really, really going.
A little background.  My church (Crossroads Church, in Ottawa Lake, Michigan) spends a lot of time and energy serving the Haitian community of Dessalines, Haiti.  Each month our church sends several thousands of dollars (all through donations) and multiple teams to work on construction projects, the hospital that we help to support, to run eye clinics and to love on children in the local orphanage.

 

A few months ago I was asked to go on one of these trips and more specifically, asked to go on a trip that would focus on the orphanage.  The orphanage is called Ebenezer Glen, and is located on an amazing, self-sustaining compound where the kids receive food, education, direction and most importantly, love.  Such an incredible place.  While I am there I have been asked to participate in several painting projects at the orphanage but the majority of my time will be spent capturing day-to-day life of these orphans.  Mealtime, school-time, impromptu soccer games…laughter and tears.  It is all so important.  I feel a huge sense of responsibility in not only capturing these stories, but to share them with you all: my family, friends, clients and fans.  I want to do these kids justice.   I just feel it is so important for people to see what life is like for these children.
I’d love to inspire others to show their love.

Here’s the challenge.  Even though I was asked to go, I’m still responsible for the financial end of this trip.  This includes travel, in country costs and monies to help provide beans and rice to the orphanage.  At this point, I have paid $600 of the $1200 that is needed for me to go.  I am only halfway there, which is one of the reasons why I am sharing this with all of you.  You are my photography community and I know you understand the impact that a photograph can have.  I want to share my gift and help these kids tell their stories.
This is probably the most personal blog post I will ever write.  I am completely opening myself up here.  It scares me a little. :)  I want to be less guarded and more open and accepting of God and faith in general. I not only want to tell these kids stories, but I know that God has planned something big for me.  There’s a reason why I was delayed in going on this trip for 3 years.  There’s a reason I’m going on this particular trip.
Will you consider supporting me and helping me make this trip a reality?  No pressure.  I just wanted to put it out there.  You may not be able to go to Haiti yourself but this is a tangible way that you can serve these kids.  Any monies raised over the $1200 will go directly to the orphanage to provide food and clothing for the children.
Something else I’d like to share.  I have been looking for a camera, a DSLR to take with me to use to document my trip.  My insurance company will not cover my camera and equipment if it were lost/damaged/stolen when taken out of country.  So I said a little prayer and went out on a limb.  I asked my photography community if anyone had a camera that they would be willing to donate to me for this trip.  Guess what?  Within ten minutes I had a camera. That fast.  Just like that.  My heart was completely overflowing with love and appreciation of how good people are.  The camera was put in the mail today and is on its way to me.

I am so grateful.

If you would like to help me financially, for this trip, I have included a donation link below that will take you to Paypal.  Any amount would be so much appreciated.  If you cannot financially help, prayer for a safe trip and for us to accomplish what He intends us to is also needed.  I will be leaving March 13th so the deadline is just a couple of short weeks.

A quick snap from a past trip…children lined up at the well to get a bath and then to air dry.

 

 

 


Almost Gone! | Toledo Children’s Photographer

Almost Gone….mini session’s that is! I have just had a spot on Sunday Oct 2nd open up and I have two open on Thursday October 6th. This is a fantastic deal that is only offered once a year. These sessions are great for a family session, a siblings session, whatever you’d like! You’ll have the digital files to use for Christmas cards, scrapbooks, invites, and portraits for your walls. Think…gifts for the whole family at a fraction of the cost :)

Fall Mini’s are here! | Toledo Children’s Photographer

Please contact Tara asap to book as these do fill up fast! Limited spots available.

Baby G | Toledo Newborn Photographer

One of the prettiest babies ever….I couldn’t believe all of his blonde hair. He was so good. Isn’t Big Sister beautiful? Enjoy. :)

You were loved before I met you

The love in this family is phenomenal.  It was obvious and so refreshing to see.  Big brother is a sweetheart, Mom is down to earth and Dad is so proud of his family and baby to be!

 

Stay tuned for Baby Carter’s debut!